Fickle Flower

fickle:
–adjective 1. likely to change, esp. due to caprice, irresolution, or instability; casually changeable: fickle weather.

Why do we pretend to be who we want to be? Come on, we all want everyone to love us...but why? Don't you think that means "fitting in with society?" Life shouldn't run you down and you shouldn't be fake. People change like the seasons...we all need to discover the question "why."

You learn from your mistakes, but you have to live them not be TOLD how to avoid them....

Mixing Isn't Just for Drinks....

(Inspired by Lil Billy)

What are your thoughts on our Country verses China/Africa/etc.??? As we sit around and contemplate why the good ole U.S. of A. has so many issues, Mr. McGee states that we are a country of a lot of different people. Mixers is the term we will use. Why is it when you go to China you only see a Chinese with a Chinese? On a side note, if the Chinese eat so much rice, why are they so dern skinny? When you visit Mexico, Mexicans are with Mexicans..and so forth. Well as we have been enlightened by tonights conversation, we have quite a few "mixers" in USA. Nothing is wrong with finding love or being a free country, but I am begining to believe "mixing" may be the core reason we are a target for concern. We welcome everyone with open arms who in turn take advantage. To a certain extent. Instead of USA, lets now refer to our country as "The Melting Pot." A little of this and a little of that all scattered about. We should be uniformed and organized, the way we want our personal & work life to be.

Honestly, however you fancy your ordeal life to be is how it should be. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion with the understanding that all humans have one. Opinions are like ass holes. It is respecting each other and their beliefs. That right there is what we must learn and the R-E-S-P-E-C-T, "find out what it means to me" (and you) before we judge.

Back to the controversey, only we can make a difference. "Stick together as people," Lil Billy. He, Lil Billy, will be the next greatist philosoper of all times...well, one that really makes you think.

Inglorious

No one struggles in your web.

Why Do They Always Put Holes In Crackers?

...Who is "they?" If you soak a rasin in water will it go back to being a grape? Why does a round pizza come in a square box? Where do you get your sense of direction and how do you know when you aren't making the "wrong" decision? Do you go with your heart of your gut? I mean now a-days with fast food everyone's gut is getting pretty big, but seriously...how do you know when you are making the right decision? Who cares as long as you can feel it's right. Why have to or feel the need to explain ones self? Go for what you want. NOW.

It is all good when you let it go...be yourself and let it flow. You wont ever realize how far you can get until you let go of being "comfortable." Stability is not everything that it seems. Take that chance and walk away, to DO things...Grab it and hold on to what it is you want, your dreams and goals...DO THINGS!!!! MAKE IT HAPPEN! Only YOU have the power. Live your life to the fullest.

Rock Pearls Straight Out the Oyster

I want more than I can take...until I start to ache. Bite more than you can chew and chew as fast as you can, says my personal horoscope profile. After the work hours, the morning still comes, but if you turn out the light....follow me and see all my dreams. The world IS quite what it seems. (Natalie Furtado) This girl, moi, is a "fickle flower" and is "searching for things she can not find. Running and running, catch up with me life." What are you in search of? The question of the day has been how old I am and why am I still single. What is single? I have a job that I'm married to, a wonderful family and 1 best friend that I have dedicated all my life and heart to. It may not be that picket fence story, but it's MY fairy tale. I could change, but I'm dancing to a different beat. Being different will never fail you since there are no foot steps to follow in. Find your own way just like you find your own beat and 2 step to your favorite song. Make an impression on not only your life, but someone elses.

You know when you call a place of business and on the other end you can sense that uneasy/hate my job feeling? Well, when you pick up the phone...look in the mirror and smile. The receiver will feel it and "see" it.

Have you final say...that is your opinion. It's the perfect, ultimate fight for me. You say "No" and "Don't fail...." makes me succeed that much more. Comments like that do get to me, but karma is so beautiful. In fact, I'm thinking of giving that name to my baby girl.

Rock out with no doubts...straight out the oyster. Tear the rearview mirror out and don't look back. Do your thing, YOUR way.

Is this mic on?

Better yet, where has my time gone? Oh, now I remember...moving, new job and picking back up the pieces to this so called life. "Never play leap frog with a unicorn." And have some faith.
A little confidence goes a long way. So does getting away from poison. In the words of Monica, "don't tell me a lie, tell me the truth." Take it how you want it. MJ said, "live your life and be responsible..." Keep that head up-

I guess this post is vague, but that's the best thing about an imagination and "what if's" of life. Take it how it best fits with you. Damn, I feel like my Daddy. Preaching. Having Daddy/Daughter dinner night, it made me think...for 3 days. (I take that back because I have a million trillion thoughts going thru my head every milli second.) He mentioned an event from the past that I never thought he knew about- still don't know how to react or respond. What I do know is that I will forever be thankful of the life that has been chosen for me. Where ever it has been and what it holds for me in the future. Great family, great family and I wake up everyday ready to tackle what is in store for me at every given moment. Doors opening are nothing but opportunities....MADE and PUT IN FRONT OF YOU FOR A REASON. Its your choice to take it or leave it. Change is scary, but wouldn't you regret if you never took a chance? Maybe not regret, but gahlee...BO-RINGGGG!

wanna play?

Can someone tell me what it takes to be accepted? Better yet how you feel that everyone accepts you? That is the biggest joke. There are over 4 BILLION humans on this Earth...if everyone accepts, I would like to make an ass out of you and me and assume you play every card you are dealt to the fullest. Not everyone gets along with everyone, unless you are unique like me of course...but when do you make the final decision you aren't scared to "throw it under the bus" and "wash your hands" of a past experience? A wonderful, great, opened many a door, made a "2nd family," hate to go so much you've been in tears for hours over it...
Being a push over is like having a softer side, being a bitch is being strong and standing up for yourself and beliefs or what you know is right...life is NOT a rehearsal nor a test. You get one and no one should settle.
I repeat; THIS IS NOT A TEST.
*Love with no hands (no comment other than hands=judgment)
*Run from negativity and people you attempt to make happy and happy EVERYDAY. They take your butterflies and spark away after a while.
*Promises can always be broken. If not call Judge Judy and she may can help. LMFAO.
*if you don't speak your mind.......you will......
ERUPT!
Its vomit of the mouth! Be loved and if you are hated don't have a care or worry. There is no guarantee and you will have everything you need at your fingertips...just know when to accept and use the resources. Karma is a bitch. You can only treat or know the way you wanna be treated. Live the one and only life you have.
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Things Are Not Always What They Seem

....Even when you ask. This Thanksgiving was wonderful! We laughed, we cried and we laughed so much it made us all cry! Since Oprah is going to no longer be apart of day-time television, Dakota and I are going to pitch our new reality show called "Do it like the Dawson's." I really think it will be a winner...

So, besides the tears and backaches from laughing...there were pranks and all at my cost. Mommy got some cheese pick things for her birthday (the steaks you stick in the blocks of cheese to differentiate what "flavor" each is). Well, notice the picture above. Does that one triangle shape say cheddar or do am I totally spaced out? I even ASKED my Mother and she said in fact it WAS cheddar. Needless to say I'm a cheese freak especially when it comes to CHEDDAR. Everyone is sitting around the table discussing random thoughts as we are all picking leftovers off each others plates. There were chunks of cheese, but no crackers on my plate and I was too stuffed to even try and consume that yummy cheddar cheese since I already ate half the block anyway. Nana proceeds to ask if the PARMESAN cheese was any good...PARMESAN CHEESE???? PARMESAN CHEESE?! DO WHAT? Yeah, I ate Parmesan cheese, a whole block of it thinking it was cheddar...I look over at Mommy with this eat shit and die look and ask why she lied to me. She replied, "I didn't have a pick that said Parmesan." On the other hand, I ASKED her to reassure myself since the texture was different and she lied to me!!! UGH!

Holler @ Chalie Boy

These new lyricists amaze me with their choice in music videos and not to mention what they actually spit to the beats they produce..but this song right cher makes me wanna get up and dance!

Dreamer Disease

"Dream is a semi-conscious state where we have absolutely no control over our thoughts and expressions (unless we master lucid dreaming). Did you know that most of us spend six years or more of our lifetime dreaming? Research proves that all of us dream at least twice or more in our sleep though we may not remember when we get up. In 5 minutes of waking, half of our dream is forgotten and within 10 minutes, almost all dreams are forgotten. People who are blind from birth too dream. It is just that the dreams of these individuals are formed by other sense such as the touch, smell, sound and taste. During roman era some dreams were even discussed and interpreted in the senate as the dream was considered to be a God sent message for the mankind. Lucid dreams are considered those dreams where person can take full or partial control of their dreams. Most important fact in order to be aware that we are dreaming is practice. Writing down and keeping track of your dreams is very important. Second thing is noticing signs or triggers that can help us stay aware that we are in dreaming state. Once we start dreaming lucidly we could control the imaginary experiences in the dream environment. This is extremely important for people that have nightmares. Interesting facts is that our body is paralyzed during our sleep probably to prevent the body from acting out dreams." (http://www.interestingfacts.org/fact/dream-facts)

KatieLand ..stay tuned for a remix...

Where shall I begin on this piece of God's creation? We shall not refer to her as a human nor an alien, but a masterpiece. This work of art is so very unfamiliar yet familiar in the sense of a canvas painted by Picasso. From far away it looks constructive and well thought out, but when you step up close and examine it's a mess. Not negative, a mess meaning here and there...like what the hell, you don't know what to expect. Like BLAM! WHOOSH! You can't throw this thang in the bag, sorry Fabolous.

There is only one thing that keeps me from breaking her in half, the fact that I couldn't be sane and have two of her around. With that being said, I can not deny how much I love her and how much she means to me. This is the Peanut Butter to my Jelly, the Batman to my Robin, the BB gun to my holster, the Patrick to my SpongeBob and the flush to my toilet. Better yet, the crunch to my Dorito. Like Lucy must do to Ricky Ricardo, let me 'splain...

Her breath is like cinnamon which can counter act with fatigue and boredom. "This can interfere with concentration, but keeping the mind stimulated can increase productivity and focus." For a boost during the day all you need is some KT. The conversations between us sometimes must be decoded by the Pirates Dictionary. Words and thoughts that we share, only her and I can understand which is the basis upon this long lasting friendship. Why when she speaks it makes you speechless. That's because she speaks the truth. If you walked out the door with a donkey mask on looking like an ass, no pun intended, she would make you feel like a million dollar bill. No lie, been there and sat on the sidewalk for 2 hours with a roadie in my sippy cup. (Ok, pretend I wasn't sloshed, I would have still taken her word that I looked FAB.) Let me add, she made a marvelous pig.

Lets put her as a play piece to board game...for example, a game of Monopoly is super boring beside the fact that you can play and buy whatever you want and hold the banker up at gunpoint and not go to jail. Like our moments painting the town red. We have so much fun together we don't realize the people around us are exhausted of our free entertainment, dancing our mexicano dances street-side and having our pinata Billy the Bad ass Bull as our DD. After all, no town can handle the both of us together, that is why the Mayor and all other political affiliates choose us to reside 30 miles outside of each other. It is until we give each other the look of, "I've had enough(of these fools not having as much fun as we are)" when we realize we have out done our welcome to the whole city. They say "Choosy Mom's choose JIF." Well Mom's around here choose Pimpin' and Weezy brand. Chunky and all natural with no honey added.

When it comes to candy, I'd say this creation can be compared to Sour Patch Kids. Yes, they are her best comparison candy wise. Sour on the outside and if you can stand it before you spit it out, you got the sweetness. LOL, then again what smart girl lets her true colors (or flavors) be shown right up front? Every new kid has another sour to go thru before you can have the sugar again! Mama didn't raise no fool! Trust. Somewhat like a Now-n-Later, although if you want her now you can't have her later. KT will hand out that pink slip.

How about the weather? Is that thunder? is that rain? No way...it's a damn rainbow! An abundance of pure colorfulness that will brighten up anyones day. There is not one negative ounce of hatered in this masterpieces body. To end this blog or short story on my best friend, that is what attracts everyone to her. It's a shame she has to shake sticks at humans to get them off of her, but you must go thru the application and background check to be apart of her life. Rain is always a necessity to bring new blooming flowers or fresh meat around, but this chick has an extensive collection of rainboots and loves to dance. Like Beyonce, with the booty, she was created for a special purpose...to be and prove that there are real and true friends out there.

My Pimpin' is my heart and she is the best support bra a girl could ask for. Here is to you Katie "Pimpin' is Easy" Lunden, you my ride or die chick and if it weren't for you I don't know how I would make it to the bottom of my bottomless glass! You moving here or am I going to have Mommy sand up some adult bunkbeds to be transfered to Greenville?

Resolution? Contribution?

Don't you think that contributions make resolutions? I guess coming up with what you want resolved before you ask or make contributions is key...then again that's thinking inside the box while everyone else is thinking outside the box.
This particular blog won't get very far in my thought process since this mind of mine has clocked out for the evening. Well, at least clocked out on having any kind of "serious, prove Jessica's point thought process."
Let's just start with a telephono convo that just ended between my ex-roomie, aka handsome thang, best friend and the most important title he has, Daddy. Someone, asshole neighbors as I have been refering to them as, set up a TRAP with bones and meat to catch my furry children only to call the animal pound to pick them up. WTH? Not to get to deep, but isn't that wrong? I'm crying, Daddy is mad and my poor baby Stella stayed in doggie jail for 2 nights until we found out where she was. Trapping is like stalking, its a crime.

-ism

Sunday night on the couch watching Sex and the City is what it's all about. First thing s first, why must I always try to fight sleep? Is it because I'm scared to miss something or the fact that I hate the thought of doing absolutely nothing? That right there is going to be a whole other blog entry. So, back to my HBO evening...this episode is talking about, well what every Sex and the City is about...sex. How is it so easy for some to just meet and if not that second, but within days start mattress dancing? Not to mention the fact that this scenario may happen over and over with different dancers. Trust that I'm not judging on how many or how often someones monkey meets another banana. Whatever
floats your boat, this is your life and a free country. Do what pleases you. These ladies and their "tv" lives are quite intriguing. From being social to living in the city that never sleeps to being strong and independent women with the best of friends always for one another thru ups and downs. Are they going to have auditions for a 5th sista?

If it ain't broke, don't fix it

But if it is broke, it can be fixed! Don't let youself get in the way. Time doesn't heal all, but staying positive is key. There are always options and alternatives to the dark side of life. I hate to say or better yet hear the word "no," but dern, sometimes ya gotta face it and pick up the pieces. Yeah, if I find a shoe that is absolutely breath taking there's no doubt if it fits my arse is getting it in every color.

After All

"Every road is winding" sometimes straigt for a mile or so with left and right turns, maybe even a few forks along the way. Drive the path that you wish to take with your heart and/or mind. Use the confidence within yourself. Things may not turn out the way you have planned nor what you have hoped for, but in the end it the outcome is made for you. We all have control of our destiny. Generally speaking. Everyone knows right from wrong and if you decide to take that unknown turn to only hit a few pot holes and go over speed bumps, everything will eventually be a-ok. IF allowed.
Life wouldn't be interesting if no one ever made mistakes. All we need to do is learn from them. Heartbreaks and broken promises are apart of life. Along with the hope of a better tomorrow. One of the main topics I avoid discussing is religion. Everyone has a right to their own belief as well as opinion. Right along with your choice of same sex marriage, if you don't agree then don't have one. Love is love in every shape and form. I'm wanting everyone to just believe in themselves. Only we know what we want and need and it's up to us to begin in making it happen. If you don't think you can, you can not. Think about The Little Engine That COULD...and he DID! It is that easy, tough, but just believe in yourself. "I think I can, I think I can. I know I can!"