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Sunday, January 11, 2009

It's a Cold World

"Sometimes when I feel like killing someone, I do a little trick to calm myself down. I'll go over to the person's house and ring the doorbell. When the person comes to the door, I'm gone, but you know what I've left on the porch? A jack-o-lantern with a knife stuck in the side of its head with a note that says 'You.' After that I usually feel a lot better, and no harm done." Deep Thoughts by Jack Handey

The past week I have been a tourist in an unknown land. Being un-motivated/disengaged, late to every appointment, having that hateful feeling mixed with wanting to give up. The past 7 months have been absolutely wonderful, but the past 7 days have been...well, they've been. I have never understood the saying "It's a dog eat dog world." My Aunt always preached to me never burn bridges because one day they might be the boss you have an interview with or the police officer that just pulled you over.

Look, I'm going to get straight to the point. I don't believe to get ahead you have to push everyone else down. There is nothing more that I can't stand is a sneaky snakey weasel! Moms brought us up to never "hate" anyone or anything, but I'm borderline hateing. People talk and even the dumbest person can tell when something isn't right. Having done my research, listening to what is being said around me and thinking...alot. Ugh, I'm so disgusted. I don't trust many people nor do I have very many friends. I guess I figure that if you don't depend or expect things from anyone you won't ever be let down. Yeah, kinda sad in a way, but the people in my life have my whole heart, and I'm a very, very, very happy human being (for the first time since I can remember, I'd like to add). When I caught wind of what was going on, I was floored. Everyday is what you make of it and you can only allow others to bring you down. Pooo on you girlfriend, cause you ain't raining on my parade!