Just Begun...

Testing, testing...one, two, three.

For some reason I'm feeling quite unsual. Not my normal self. Let me be more specific. Something is off. Slanted. Not missing, but more like a crooked painting hanging on the wall that you keep staring at and want to straighten up. But when you get closer and shift, if you will, the painting there are still those few "steps back" to see if it is indeed straight. But it isn't.

"Step into the picture I paint...Just let it go, give it up and allow yourself to transform." My life can be summed up and sung by Christina Aguilera with a splash of Joss Stone having "jet lag and never left the ground."

Hmmm. As my mind wonders... Come with me...

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Where did I go wrong? Did I go right? Or left? They say not to think it is on the right road just because it is a well beaten path.

All I can hope, dream and wish for is a bush wacker and compass. Oh, and a bottle of svedka to have the guts to take the road not traveled.

talking and itching; to be the one bitching...

i totally owe this to MTV and the Pregnant & 16 Series.

My Daddy never, NEVER let me out after midnight when i was a teen. "Nothing good ever happens after midnight." yep. we all know this. my father, my Daddy/ex-roomie, met my date at the door with a shotgun. it didnt matter if he was 23 seconds late, dude was late. his daughter was late...and you as the driver...carried a responsibility. THE PEOPLE/PARENTS THAT RAISED THEM. what the hell happened to kids, better yet, adults? don't blame it on the water, it damn sure isn't that. i drink water and im 27. wanting kids. still waiting. for the one that can help support that amazing opportunity.

so much more to say....sheesh!

every child, mother, sister, daddy, brother, cousin and HUMAN,,,IS LOVED!

BE WHO YOU ARE AND LOVE WHO YOU ARE...better yet, LOVE YOU and BE YOU.

26 Years

I believe what they say when they say it takes a lifetime to find out who you really are. Then again, with a little help from a soulmate, a lifetime isn't needed. There are many paths and turns to travel in life. I must say I've been up and down and alllll around! Life has definitely thrown some curve balls my way. I took out my Rawlings glove and caught every one. Nothing is wrong with a fly ball...even a foul ball can be good. With that being said, I have to admit I'm the type of person to learn lessons the hard way. The fact that I learn EVERY lesson "hands-on." Yep. Good and bad. Been there done that. There is not 1 situation or path I have traveled I regret. Lesson learned. Ha!

So, a lifetime...???

Conditional Love???

Why on Earth would you want to be loved under certain conditions? Or generally speaking, be accepted under conditions?

Spare me. Love may not go both ways, but it is up to you to realize and make the decision to stay or go. Any relationship involves love, acceptance and respect. Healthy or unhealthy? Only you know...

It hurts to grasp the fact that family could be set on conditions. Trust me. Blood is thicker than water, so I've heard.

There comes a time in everyones life where you must make a very difficult decision.

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for some reason i have this urge to post a new post, but im having a difficult time deciphering what direction im going to allow my mind to wander. go figure. call me "space-cadet." most people do.

please excuse the lack of proper capital letters and punctuation. it makes me feel free to not abide by correct usage at the moment.

so, where were we? hmm...what do i type about...???

i should be studying. but im not. i like champagne especially when the $75 bottle or $15 glass goes towards a childrens charity. i shouldnt have drank so much of it last night, but i did. and hey, it was for a good cause.

THAT IS WHAT I SHALL TYPE ABOUT....

Good Deeds.

Ever since Mommy was diagnosed with breast cancer, my whole world changed. It wasn't until that very moment that I realized no matter how perfect ones life is, God throws us curve balls. Trust me, it was an eye opener. I mean to MAYBE loose my Mommy to cancer? HELLS NO!!! Was not going to happen... Participating in the yearly community walks, raising $$ for research and most importantly, spreading awareness to others.

Since then, it became a passion. Not only to spread the word, but to be aware. Aware of others. What goes thru their minds when something difficult or a life tragedy occurs. We are all privileged individuals in different ways. We all wish and hope for hopes and wishes... It seems silly to wish for those new pair of D&G shoes when there is so much more to life than materials. I am very guilty of the guilty pleasures. Although, after Mommy, REAL issues came across my mind more.

There is this application on Facebook about God and what he wants you to know for the day...every now and then I get curious and click to find out. Honestly, they are always right on point. Anyhow, it said something along the lines of wealth and happiness is measured by what you give (back). Or that was my take on it...

As bad as we may think our lives are, someone has it worse. Never underestimate the card you are delt. At least you got a card!

Keep Your Penny. Ima Give You My Thought Regardless.

Earlier this afternoon my eyes ran upon a quote that literally made me back up and reread. It mentioned us having a "right" to do as we pleased. As my eyes continued to scroll the statement also pointed out a true fact....

JUST BECAUSE WE HAVE A RIGHT, DOES NOT MEANT IT IS RIGHT.
(i can not quote it since the words may be re-arranged and im unsure of who's mouth it originated from.)

As long as you promise to laugh, I will share the title of the book these wise words were typed... Are you prepared to laugh yet? Ok...here goes...

Uncle Johns "Slightly Irregular Bathroom Reader" by the Bathroom Readers' Institute

No, I was not on the throne with book in hand. I prefer to text while pottying. ;)
On another note, the quote was an eye catcher as the GAMES TO PLAY (as you do whatever you do in the restroom) are so interesting!!!


TO BE CONTINUED....

In My Opinion...

...if it rains during the day, the sun should still shine. I bet employees would be more productive on a wet workday.

...shoving an apple in a pigs mouth while BBQing the poor thing is just down right cruel.

...vodka should be a main food group.

...there should be more than just 1 President. How can ONE person possibly control and make decisions for BILLIONS of human beings???

...dogs are simple four legged people. They take baths, get gray hair as they age, like to kiss & poop, eat Doritos, watch SpongeBob and make friends easily. My concern is the whole chasing the ball thing. My black furry daughter is a maniac when it comes to a tennis ball.

...cancer shouldn't exist. All it does is kill.

...if the ingredient box, if you will, states any sort of vitamin or healthy additive I believe it to be just that- healthy and good for my body not just my taste buds.

...people should have wings to be able to fly south for the winter. Or the world needs to just rid of the chilly seasons.

...grandparents are just that. GRAND.

...people with a spacey mind such as myself should never get the opportunity to receive a drivers license.

...EVERYTHING is worth it in the end.

An Ex can be summed up as an X

"When an ex says you will never find someone else like me. That really doesn't offend me....they should come up with something better cause well obviously I wouldn't have dumped you if I wanted someone like you."

Let's take this to a whole different spectrum. When you order a dish at a restaurant and realize it doesn't spark your tastebuds. Will you order it again next time? Probably not. What if the chef changed a few spices around? It may taste a better, but the main ingredient is still the same. The presentation may change, but deep down, it is still the same.

i cant hear a thing...

Its like putting your telephone on mute and the person on the reciever being oblivious of no one listening...not only do I feel like the person on the other end, but I may have a slight problem tuning others out. Not to justify this problem of mine, but I am not an owner of a one track mind. Multi-tasking is my specialty.

Today was a life changing experience for myself. I realized for the first time, first hand, how I may have made other human beings feel in the past...

I'm floored.

http://blog.amnestyusa.org/deathpenalty/anti-homosexuality-bill-could-mean-a-death-sentence-for-lgbt-people-in-uganda/



ARE YOU SHITTING ME? I'm so sorry, but this is like killing people for the religiion they CHOOSE to follow. Love is love wether it is black, green, white...there is no color. Love is a feeling and if you feel it, who is there to judge who it's with? Only that person knows how they feel...ugh. I'm so disgusted that this is even an option. People can be so cruel.

Fickle Flower

fickle:
–adjective 1. likely to change, esp. due to caprice, irresolution, or instability; casually changeable: fickle weather.

Why do we pretend to be who we want to be? Come on, we all want everyone to love us...but why? Don't you think that means "fitting in with society?" Life shouldn't run you down and you shouldn't be fake. People change like the seasons...we all need to discover the question "why."

You learn from your mistakes, but you have to live them not be TOLD how to avoid them....

Mixing Isn't Just for Drinks....

(Inspired by Lil Billy)

What are your thoughts on our Country verses China/Africa/etc.??? As we sit around and contemplate why the good ole U.S. of A. has so many issues, Mr. McGee states that we are a country of a lot of different people. Mixers is the term we will use. Why is it when you go to China you only see a Chinese with a Chinese? On a side note, if the Chinese eat so much rice, why are they so dern skinny? When you visit Mexico, Mexicans are with Mexicans..and so forth. Well as we have been enlightened by tonights conversation, we have quite a few "mixers" in USA. Nothing is wrong with finding love or being a free country, but I am begining to believe "mixing" may be the core reason we are a target for concern. We welcome everyone with open arms who in turn take advantage. To a certain extent. Instead of USA, lets now refer to our country as "The Melting Pot." A little of this and a little of that all scattered about. We should be uniformed and organized, the way we want our personal & work life to be.

Honestly, however you fancy your ordeal life to be is how it should be. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion with the understanding that all humans have one. Opinions are like ass holes. It is respecting each other and their beliefs. That right there is what we must learn and the R-E-S-P-E-C-T, "find out what it means to me" (and you) before we judge.

Back to the controversey, only we can make a difference. "Stick together as people," Lil Billy. He, Lil Billy, will be the next greatist philosoper of all times...well, one that really makes you think.

Inglorious

No one struggles in your web.

Why Do They Always Put Holes In Crackers?

...Who is "they?" If you soak a rasin in water will it go back to being a grape? Why does a round pizza come in a square box? Where do you get your sense of direction and how do you know when you aren't making the "wrong" decision? Do you go with your heart of your gut? I mean now a-days with fast food everyone's gut is getting pretty big, but seriously...how do you know when you are making the right decision? Who cares as long as you can feel it's right. Why have to or feel the need to explain ones self? Go for what you want. NOW.

It is all good when you let it go...be yourself and let it flow. You wont ever realize how far you can get until you let go of being "comfortable." Stability is not everything that it seems. Take that chance and walk away, to DO things...Grab it and hold on to what it is you want, your dreams and goals...DO THINGS!!!! MAKE IT HAPPEN! Only YOU have the power. Live your life to the fullest.

Rock Pearls Straight Out the Oyster

I want more than I can take...until I start to ache. Bite more than you can chew and chew as fast as you can, says my personal horoscope profile. After the work hours, the morning still comes, but if you turn out the light....follow me and see all my dreams. The world IS quite what it seems. (Natalie Furtado) This girl, moi, is a "fickle flower" and is "searching for things she can not find. Running and running, catch up with me life." What are you in search of? The question of the day has been how old I am and why am I still single. What is single? I have a job that I'm married to, a wonderful family and 1 best friend that I have dedicated all my life and heart to. It may not be that picket fence story, but it's MY fairy tale. I could change, but I'm dancing to a different beat. Being different will never fail you since there are no foot steps to follow in. Find your own way just like you find your own beat and 2 step to your favorite song. Make an impression on not only your life, but someone elses.

You know when you call a place of business and on the other end you can sense that uneasy/hate my job feeling? Well, when you pick up the phone...look in the mirror and smile. The receiver will feel it and "see" it.

Have you final say...that is your opinion. It's the perfect, ultimate fight for me. You say "No" and "Don't fail...." makes me succeed that much more. Comments like that do get to me, but karma is so beautiful. In fact, I'm thinking of giving that name to my baby girl.

Rock out with no doubts...straight out the oyster. Tear the rearview mirror out and don't look back. Do your thing, YOUR way.